i love love; i fear fear

love is ripe now-- it always seems to be this time of year- and yet its always so new and fresh and bitter sour and yummy all at once..

well-

yes, for those of you who have been following, i did turn thirty-ONE a couple of weeks ago and now it seems like suddenley im older in a sort of way that is both releaving and teriffying all at once..

i talked to my theripist today for along time,

but the thing that has stuck with me after nearly two and 1/2 hours, is my relationship to myself and, well my higher self and god..

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it's funny to say that and write it, but nothing but honest and real to feal it..

(let me speak truth and my story through my expression of my life- please. LET ME- and i say this now to all of the absolutel ones who will never read this and also speak to the absolutely true and real ones who so ever read this that LIFE IS CRAZY and yes,

bizarre and yes, \

we are all the same and yes............................ and blah blah blah,,,,)

looking back (as most do on their birthday,) , i see so many pure and misread intentions and it's so frustrating..and inspiring to try harder
i want to be seen

i want to be loved

i want to be successful

i want to use the energy of the universe

i want to give

i want to radiate

i love so well, i just want to enjoy that--no matter what.

i want balance

i want music

i want to dance

hello

again.

remember me?

i am you..